I love Myself......

While writing this post i have just bunked my Sunday class for a certification i have applied for. i got up on time and then suddenly decided to drop off. That's what is happening with the office too. I was never like this . Yes, i have bunked college but always for fun with friends . Here i am bunking just for solitude. A time just for myself , whereby i would do what ever i love. i want to sleep, read , blog , watch my favorite movies , shop , paint , cook and exercise all by myself . Enjoying company of my other self which has been lost somewhere while i was trying to meet deadlines and making others merry. The only left weekends too have gone for my 5 hrs long classes and i am back again to office on Mondays with the list of things i still have to do. A friend suggested to just take some time off and relax at home. i can but for some time i just want to go into oblivion . I don't want anyone around except for me and myself. Yes, i am talking like a selfish person but this selfishness have come out of selflessness. There is a canvas lying in my room since ages to be painted , so many books on my shelf to be read , a lot of movies to be watched , a lot of dishes to be learnt , a lot of items to be bought and a lot of items to be searched. The worst is losing my credit card which i haven't even opened from the envelope it came in and now when i want to cancel it , i don't know the details. I have to pay my water bills which i haven't paid from last two months and i have an outstanding credit card payments for the first time . I was planning to join some weight loss program since the start of the year and the timeline was till my birthday and here i am with my birthday just approaching and not losing a single ounce. It's not me .I am not even able to study what i am learning at my weekend classes! I always used to wonder about people wanting some "me" time and now i am realizing what it mean. I want to do things which like , which i want without paying the hid to what other's say. My current project would be off by this month end and i am surly taking few days off , all for myself . I pledge.