To God...

Finally I have downloaded app for blogger and now this is my first post through my phone :P and guess it's for whom?
I haven't blogged for a while and for the first time I didn't felt like it also. The time has been hard and this is something which is not new to me . But this time it's different. The heaviness cease to go from my heart no matter what I do. I have always felt that I am surly not the God's favourite child but then I am his baby and I need him now by my side :(
Where are you God and why you always make me believe that you favour your naughtier children more. I did everything to make you happy and still I think I lost to them :( . I have even passed the stage of questioning you that why it's me everytime. Like other times I have to face it and fight back and I will , as they say "something that won't kill you , will make you stronger" .

Just wishing that someday you will look upon this girl of yours and realise how much she wanted you to be by her side. I wish that day to come soon ...